HOW FREAKING BEING MISJUDGED CAN BE DEPRESSING ...

hey guys its been a while.. 

so I wanna tell you how my day went.. 

so I thought it was a good day,  had two classes which I attended without being late,

but things got crappy at my second class which is also my last class for that day, i was chatting and joking with my friends while waiting for our professor, only half of the class was there because the other half joined that educational tour for 3 days and 2 nights.,,

 so my professor was taking attendance, she was saying how she felt bad that for the other half of the class that didn't join.. so she said that she will give a plus 10 points for our upcoming quiz,, SO anyway she started calling out our name for attendance she was checking with us if the person she's calling is in the trip or was just plain absent. commenting how the others that joined came because their group of friends was there and same goes for those who stayed behind.. then when she called my name and i raised up my hand, she said "you didn't joined the trip ms.***** because you have no friends because your attitude suck, learned how to associate with others to have friends" the class was laughing, and I just went in the flow I was laughing at the joke that was an offense to me but I didn't want to be a kill joy added to having sucky attitude, cause seriously what can I do in that situation? IT was so embarrassing at I wanted to be eaten by the floor. she said it jokingly but seriously there was depth in her tone which meant that she was serious.. 

..and so maybe your thinking why did she say that.. maybe it's because you really got bad attitude?

..maybe and maybe not..

.. nobody's perfect, we all make mistakes,, and most of all 'WE CANNOT PLEASE EVERYONE' 

I am not a very sociable person, I am mostly quiet cause I have a very bad way of saying things and I tend to come as rather offensive..

but this is too much ..

..to be embarrassed in front of the whole class having no courage to fight, to prove them wrong....

it was all so depressing .. 

is it really human nature to only believe what they heard? is listening to one side of the story like listening to the whole story?

I hope she tried to knnow her students better but what can you expect from a professor?..

WOW..... WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOHHHHHHHHHHHH ... LIKE WOW.... SIGHHHH~~~~

I am just speechless,, I wish people would not only listen to one side,I hoped my so called friends would stand up for me cause I would for them.. 

F*ck You MISJUDGEMENT!!

review: How I met your mother finale?

hey guys! .. I've just finished the last episode of HIMYM

and i have one thing to say .(for starters) "WHAT THE HELL WAS THAT?" like seriously , i did not just watched a 200+ episode series to see that kind of ending.....

I AM VERY DISAPPOINTED....(that's my initial reaction and it still is BUT....)

I have to really give salute (MAJOR SALUTE!) to the makers of this.. like we were in for the whole thinking so much as who the mother is but all along it was never 'HOW TED MET THE MOTHER(partly, i guess)  but it was always about "HOW TED NEVER GOTTEN OVER THE AUNT" like i know ted really loved the mother, but at someplace in his heart there will always be robin, it might have been over shadowed by the mother, but robin was never out of the picture, it was always about how ted keep pretending he was over ROBIN (or at some point maybe he thought he was by a tiny percent)  but he was'nt which is why VICTORIA(the no.1 candidate to be the mother but then again...) let her go.. she(victoria) was right  robin was always 'THE ONE" the one who ted will always have a space for his heart, a hidden secluded secret feeling..

I've never forgot that one line from victoria: "I HOPE YOU GET HER SOMEDAY"

and so that was it..that was the ultimatum..that ted have always love robin and if not now, then someday when i guess their more ready..

anyway,, the things I had HOPED

1. the mother did not die like the theory but we all kind of knew already
2. I hoped they just stop at that train scene just before they showed 2030 (ted and the kids talking). it was already SOOOOOOOooooo BEAUTIFUL.. but like Ive said it wasnt about the mother but aunt ROBIN.. (UH-HUH)...

and Penny(ted's daugther) said so herself " moms hardly in the story, no.. this is a story of how your totally in love with aunt robin" and that's the biggest revelation we all knew already but like ted we kept pretending, hoping not... for #teamMother!


I guess the whole show already gave hints , preparing the people for this.. for instance

1. victoria: "I HOPE YOU GET HER SOMEDAY"
2. mother: "LIFE ONLY MOVES FORWARD"

AND SO ON.. 

but in the end it isnt about 'the end' , there is no end.. THERE IS ONLY THAT LITTLE MOMENTS THAT MAKES UP THOSE BIG MOMENTS THAT WE ALL REMEMBERED..

TED: "BECAUSE SOMETIMES, EVEN IF YOU KNOW HOW SOMETHINGS GONNA END, THAT DOES'NT MEAN YOU CAN'T ENJOY THE RIDE"

END..


\so I guess marshall wins the bet between him and Lily..
and it isnt as disappointing as i thought..
:) goodnight..

Am I an Antisocial?

hey guys..

I've always wonder why its so hard to make friends when other do it with just a 'hi'
I wonder if I'm weird, antisocial, introvert and so many other terms synonym to that..

why cant i make friends instead i leave them with a bad impression, why cant i just let go of my consciousness in front of others eyes and thought why cant i just NOT care at all to every SH*T the throw me,
i see their eyes and i know i just know what they think is not good, but what i know more is I'm scared that the person they see is the real me..

i don't want to become that person who is easily influenced but I feel that am ,

will this shyness lead to a "FOREVER ALONE" status in life?

I ask the guidance of God to help me and the others see me in a different light..... a different angle........
 a different focus... help me not be judgemental and criticize other..
may my true emotions and feelings reach and not just my words.

and....

..as complicated as I can be,.

.....I'am a Good person.... THAT I'm sure...

I dont intend to be crystal clear, but not to be misunderstood..

to be continued...